Sunday, September 25, 2011

Fort Allen Park, Portland

Pine needles carpeting a ceiling made of three pine trees, their old homes that dropped them – set them free. Displaced drifters laying and looking longingly upward at their home. The salt in the wind is displaced - it used to be in the water. I breathe in the smell of sun, pine, dirt and sea. The rocks on the beach are displaced – they used to be part of a formation deep within the sea or high up on a mountain. A displaced seagull walks upon these rocks, not because he’s away from home, but because he’s home. And you can feel that way there too.

The smell of shit surprises me, makes me wonder if there is a port-a-potty nearby or if a displaced person without a home has used the park as their uninviting toilet. The seaweed sunbathing at the edge of the waves found a new home here at low tide, and is ready to be swept away, displaced but not forgotten, when the tide comes back to carry it away. This is where I feel most calm. Alone in a park, alone with the wind and the water and my wandering, haphazard thoughts. Each person in the park - a woman on a mat doing yoga with the bobbing boats as audience, a man jogging, an old couple making out, (yes, making out), and a young boy walking his enormous mastiff – each of them with thoughts whirling around their heads, each of them happy it’s Friday.

I count 54 boats tied to buoys, 54 boats with bright masts and lolling sterns, resting after long rides, or anticipating their next trip. A man in a Red Sox t-shirt rows towards land on his paint-chipped dinghy. The paddles dip and slide, dip, and slide across the waves, through the moving dark blue water. He paddles left a little and I see an old man in front of him, bending over the side of the boat to see what is below, how far down they’d be if they jumped in, his father probably. A musty, thick cloth lines the top of their small boat. Dad pulls out fishing gear while his son pulls in the boat, his hat backwards, his shoes topsiders. Dad takes his hat off and wipes his brow. He replaces his hat and takes a moment to consider the water. He’s happy to have spent the day with his son, happy that his son has told him that he’s going to propose to Amanda. Happy the sun is up, and his back’s not bothering him. His son backs up to latch the boat onto the hitch. Their shoes slide along the seaweed, but they’ve done this before. Back before the son went away, back before everything was moved around, displaced, changed. They drive away without a look back, leaving nothing but the waves to move forward and back, forward and back, glinting in the sun.