Wednesday, March 31, 2010

In Switzerland, Speaking German

My nose is tomato red and my cheeks begin to mimic it as we continue to drink Spezial Swiss beer, after a long, perfect day of skiing Laax. Despite my efforts of stretching, my entire body feels as though it is on fire. My muscles feel used-up and raw, my triceps, my wrists, an area below my chest and above my knees that I didn't realize even had muscles... The adrenaline hasn't stopped pumping from the day, and my body feels the bursting, twisting, crazed feeling of being alive, young, present. The day consisted of nothing but me, the air, the mountain and the snow.
I usually am following someone while skiing, following or waiting. This time, I feel completely free following nothing but my own instincts, making my own trail.
Dinner at Boardercamp, [a tiny village of chalets and small wooden houses tucked into the Alps in the sleepy, 420 population town of Rueun,] is boisterous and warm. A group of Germans (Eastern and Western, and I begin to see the difference) shouts and laughs red-facedly about the blinding white snow of the morning and the crisp blue skies of the afternoon. We meet Nicole and Stephan, and a few others patient enough to use their English for the duration, and proceed deep into the night full of ten thousand stars, toasting and prosting to skis, snow, and German swear words. Fast friendships tend to happen on the road, but this couple in particular became two of my favorite people met upon my breadcrumb trail. When you meet people like this, where upon first glance you have nothing in common but age and vibe, you dive right in without even holding your breath. We began to add "ski" to the end of each word, at one point were dancing around our cards scattered on the tabletop, broke our bottles on the floor after opening them with butter knives and the strength of our knuckles, and laughed until the strained muscles of our stomachs almost burst herniatically. My German accent worsened as the night scampered on, and by the end, emails exchanged and tight hugs separated, I promised a Yankee game to my new West German friends, in June when they are visiting New York for the first time.
"I want one of those foam fingers!" Nicole grinned. "And a big bottle of American beer!"
And as I sit now in the airport, I look forward to my Hansel and Gretel, visiting the city, and begin to plan the next place where I will leave my breadcrumbs.

Monday, March 8, 2010

All is Love


All is Love - song of the day

I didn't know everything would be so bright. I wasn't expecting how noisy things were going to be. I have the relief of the living room light and the CD that remind me of what mommy's heartbeat sounds like from inside her belly. I'm happy when I'm wrapped up, so I can't move my arms and legs too much, and I'm happy when I'm wearing my fuzzy bear outfit. I'm happy with most things, really, I'm not worried too much about anything. Mommy and Daddy are here, and I'm lucky that all of the people who come over love me so much and hold me so much and they're warm and comfortable but not as warm as the lady who smells nice and the man who bounces me while doing his funny dance.

I'm a snugglesaurus. I'm Mr. Bubby Rooster. I'm the cutest, tiniest, most incredible thing that anybody ever saw in the history of cute things. I like constant motion and I like my vibrating chair. I like milk and I like to pretend I'm drinking it sometimes when I'm really not.

I don't know about Katrina, Haiti, Chile, or Iraq, I couldn't point out where North Korea is on a map and I don't know whether or not I believe in God and I don't know that I have to choose, I don't know who the president is or what color his skin is or how badly it hurts to lose someone. I don't know anything about how beautiful the Pacific Ocean is, or about how great a Honey Weiss tastes, or how far away my auntie Lisa lives, or how great it feels to run. I'm not quite sure who won the Oscar for best supporting actress or what the newest Death Cab For Cutie album is called but I'm going to know these things, and I'm going to know more things than any of you readers out there, whose eyes are scanning across this orange screen.

I haven't read The Great Gatsby or Huckleberry Finn or Midnight's Children yet but I will - and my auntie Lisa will want to talk to me about them. I haven't tasted the sweet and savory tastes of a tart yet but I will - as my grammy Pat watches and smiles from across the table. I don't know the difference between an oak leaf and a quaking aspen yet but I will - and Daddy will tell me more about these and all the other trees as we walk through Madison's Arboretum. I don't know the lean taste of venison but I will - and my uncle Gianni will show me there's more where that came from. I don't know how to tell whether a woman is beautiful but I will, and I'll judge all women against Mommy, who will always be the most beautiful of them all. I don't know the colors of the rainbow or my abc's or how to interact with other children or just how special I am but I will - my auntie Coco will show me it all, and so much more. I don't know that if I drive 4 hours north, there is a quiet place where the walls are made from sighing hemlock and the stars are many and the pace is delightfully slow, but I will - my grandpa Kerry will show me.

Seashells, deep snow, sunlight, the Beatles, coincidence, dancing, chips ahoy, bonfires, airport arrivals gates, sleep (well I know about that one)... It's all there waiting for me and as the clock's hands start spinning and the pages of the calendar flip and flip and flip upward, I'll find out about them myself.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Chair de Poule

I got goosebumps when we walked the High Line and he looked at her with love.
I got goosebumps when on corners, her hand he took hold of.
I got goosebumps when Ryan from The Office appeared inside a store.
We got goosebumps when we went back to look, again, and then once more.

I got goosebumps when on the train she slept upon his arm.
I got goosebumps when he told me of his grandpa’s family farm.
I got goosebumps when I thought of standing to celebrate their romance.
We got goosebumps when he busted out a Russian type of dance!

But most of all the chair de poule and also a few tears came,
when I realized that in a few months time, for him she’d change her name.